"You're too good to be true"

Well at 4:00 am this morning I laid in bed with my head running like a person in training for a marathon. Believe me it was not because I was not tired, but rather my mind some times likes to wake-up hours before it should. Work was on my mind and I knew I needed to shut it off or I would not go back to sleep.

So I looked over at my sleeping husband and just started thinking about him. I am so deeply in love with him. I think I tell him that at least five times a day or get him to tell me that he loves me. He is amazing! I am so fortunate in so many ways. SO THANKS JO AND RICHARD! They did a great job in making him and molding him.
Truth be told I do think that we are perfect for each other. We both think and say the same stupid things when we are trying to be funny. Other people may not get us but we laugh at ourselves.

In less than a month we will have been married for 9 years (together for 10 1/2). The funny thing is that even when we started liking each other I really was thinking that there was no way this was going to work out. He was younger, just out of high school, and so different than any guy I had ever dated. I even told people that the reason I was around him was that he made me feel young again, especially after having a baby. The song called "Crush" played on the radio all the time and I told Sean that was us. But, once I fell for him, I fell harder than I ever thought imaginable.

Now we are still like newly weds. I have even had some complaints from friends that we are too lovey. Now, we don't make-out in front of people or grope each other (even though the thought crosses my mind). However, we are always touching - holding hands, sitting next to each other, in each others arms, and so forth. I will never apologize for this. Truth be told that we do this even when it is the two of us at home and we are watching TV. That is just us and the only thing I regret is if it makes other people feel bad, but then it maybe more jealously or frustration than anything else. I don't mean to hurt any one's feelings but I will never apologize for the affection my husband and I give and receive.

It is the little things that really do matter. Sean does 90% of the cooking and shopping. He also does a majority of the laundry. I know that he does these things for two reasons, because he knows that I am tired when I get home and because he looks at what he contribute to the marriage and does so happily. He also brings home flowers for me for no reason. I want him to know that I appreciate every little thing he does for me - right down to writing me reminder notes or putting my cell phone in my purse so I don't forget it.

My favorite thing though, and I don't think I have ever told him this, is at night when we go to bed. Sean takes my pillow and scoots it over next to his chest. I lay in the crook of his arm up on/by his chest. I feel safe, content, and loved as he holds me till I sleep. That is why it is so hard to go to sleep when he is not there.

I hope that he feels just as loved as I do. I hope everyone feels as loved as I do. I fell asleep again around 5 am with a smile on my face and these thoughts in my head.