Headaches... great!

So I have had a headache since like the end of January. It has gotten a bit better and now lately soooooo much worse. I finally could not take it anymore. I went to the doctor yesterday after work. I mean here I am talking to people holding my head, pulling my hair, or getting lost in my own thoughts cause my head is ready to just explode or fall off.

So we go in and the doctor thinks they are tension headaches that are so bad because I let them go on for so long. In my defense I used to get migraines that would subside in about a week if I stuck them out. I have had horrible headaches for as long as I can remember, even when I was really little and my mom would turn out the lights and have me listen to classical music.

The thing is that I really dreaded telling my parents who had my kids what the doctor said. Reason being that I feel as though they think that I can't handle this new job. Reality is that I love my new job! It is just everything that has been going on in the mean time.

Yes, it is stressful learning a new job and dealing with other people who really don't want to see you (well except for the small few that get sad when I tell them they are done and they still want to come see me). But lets review all the other things that have been going on. I went to the eye doctor in February and he freaked me out by telling me there was a higher chance than not that I had cancer in my eye. After waiting two to three weeks that turned out to be nothing and the eye doctor was just as relieved as me. Yeah, that was stressful. My daughter is becoming quite the moody teenager and we have frustration with the whole "I do my homework, but just don't bother to turn it in is why I have an F in that class" episodes that are reoccurring. Dylan being sick and getting the flu. Parenting is stressful. The whole "what the heck is going on at Micron issues" with Sean facing the layoff. Now, honestly I am doing well with it realizing it is what it is and there is nothing we can do but keep moving forward. Then life in general with watching loved ones go through stuff and feeling for them.

I am doing much better at handling these things than I used to. No crying, blowing up, and so on. I have been like "well whatever." So maybe my new approach has just settles in my neck and head as my new way of dealing with it.

So now on top of some new meds for a while, I have to go to physical therapy to get this under control. One way or another I will have to fit it in my really full schedule. But, yeah I'm not stressing about it. LOL

Wow, where have I been?

So I guess it have not written for a while. I swear I get started on something and then get addicted and forget all the other stuff. My husband got a facebook page. Well then so did I. What I love is that I have 10 of my cousins on there. One I have not seen since I was 12 or 13 that lives in New Jersey. It has been fun chatting with him and learning about him. I also get to tease my cousins in California and get to see what they have going on. I adore my cousin Josh because he just is fun and loves to be different.

My husband took me to an Opera for our anniversary. It was great! Mozart was the composer but it was one of his comedies. The cast and singers were wonderful both acting and singing. Yes, it was sung in Italian (I believe) but with subtitles projected above. They modernized the set and props so it was easy to follow and laugh. It was funny to see that some people dressed up like a black tie affair and some were in jeans and t-shirts. It was at the Egyptian Theater so I wondered if some people wanted to go to a movie and then realized that an Opera was playing. But it was way more expensive than a movie...lol. Sean and I dressed up nice. Afterall we were on a date. :)

My son Dylan is wayyyyyyyy toooooooo smart. He amazes me when he does his homework how little help he needs and fast he catches on. Yesterday, I just kind of ran the timer on his reading but he did all the worksheets by himself quick as lightnight and right.

Aubree is my kid I have to fight her to do her homework. She is smart and creative as well. But I think that creativity makes her think that she can create a way out of doing her homework. :) She is also smarter than she lets on because she thinks that she will have someone do most of the work if she acts like she just doesn't get it. She forgets I am her mom... and I had an older sister the exact same way. Funny how things are passed on. I swear she is a clone of my sister some times.

Am speechless...

Funny thing... my brain seems to be shutting down and I can't think. I think (yeah I just said that) it is because I have continuing education and I feel like I am in my school mode again. No room for thoughts must absorb information.

I really like the information that we are learning in our classes. I think that it is kind of my personality to do the things that we are learning in how to deal with people. The crazy thing is that because I am the newest P.O. and am there with the two senior P.O. I think I am that much more nervous. Not that either of them are mean or anything, but I guess I feel like I have to prove myself to some degree. I notice yesterday when it was my time to try the exercise and they were grading me my nerves took over. I was over thinking everything and in my head I was like "what am I doing" and "slow down." Ugh... it is hard to do something when you feel so unnatural because of the situation. I mean having a conversation when you know others are looking at you to grade you is brutal.

Hopefully, I will do better today. I just need to not over think it.