Headaches... great!

So I have had a headache since like the end of January. It has gotten a bit better and now lately soooooo much worse. I finally could not take it anymore. I went to the doctor yesterday after work. I mean here I am talking to people holding my head, pulling my hair, or getting lost in my own thoughts cause my head is ready to just explode or fall off.

So we go in and the doctor thinks they are tension headaches that are so bad because I let them go on for so long. In my defense I used to get migraines that would subside in about a week if I stuck them out. I have had horrible headaches for as long as I can remember, even when I was really little and my mom would turn out the lights and have me listen to classical music.

The thing is that I really dreaded telling my parents who had my kids what the doctor said. Reason being that I feel as though they think that I can't handle this new job. Reality is that I love my new job! It is just everything that has been going on in the mean time.

Yes, it is stressful learning a new job and dealing with other people who really don't want to see you (well except for the small few that get sad when I tell them they are done and they still want to come see me). But lets review all the other things that have been going on. I went to the eye doctor in February and he freaked me out by telling me there was a higher chance than not that I had cancer in my eye. After waiting two to three weeks that turned out to be nothing and the eye doctor was just as relieved as me. Yeah, that was stressful. My daughter is becoming quite the moody teenager and we have frustration with the whole "I do my homework, but just don't bother to turn it in is why I have an F in that class" episodes that are reoccurring. Dylan being sick and getting the flu. Parenting is stressful. The whole "what the heck is going on at Micron issues" with Sean facing the layoff. Now, honestly I am doing well with it realizing it is what it is and there is nothing we can do but keep moving forward. Then life in general with watching loved ones go through stuff and feeling for them.

I am doing much better at handling these things than I used to. No crying, blowing up, and so on. I have been like "well whatever." So maybe my new approach has just settles in my neck and head as my new way of dealing with it.

So now on top of some new meds for a while, I have to go to physical therapy to get this under control. One way or another I will have to fit it in my really full schedule. But, yeah I'm not stressing about it. LOL