So I have been sad and frustrated. I know it doesn't solve anything but actually makes things worse. I isolate myself and just kind of give up in people.
I still have that raw pain and emotion that I am hanging on but it is not as throbbing. I have been trying to lay low but not too low. I often wonder if everyone goes through a cycle of frustration. You know where there is something that is not going to change and they accept it, but after a while kind of have an explosion of it back building on them.
The reason I am alone or don't have a lot of close friends is because I don't put myself out there. Or when I do and it doesn't turn out the way I think it should have, I say that's okay and pull completely back. I have friends that literally will stand me up or only call when they need something. I always say it is no big deal. However, it is and but I allow it. I trained them.
So is it bad now I am doing the same thing? I am going to call on them when I need something.
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