Have you ever had the feeling that some people rejoice over your pain? That when things are going bad for you... all the sudden the sun seems to shine for them.
Growing up there were a few people in my life that seemed to react that way towards me. It seems that it really hasn't changed. Now I could be reading into is, that is possible, but I had a flashback today.
When I was younger there was an incident where everyone in a room waited for me to find out something they all knew would be painful. Matters of the heart. When I did, all eyes were on me for a reaction. I really did not react at all until I was home.
Now I am going through some stuff and well my life isn't so perfect. I let very little of it be known but should have just shut my mouth. I could see the glimmer in the eyes of another. I was easily dismissed and even kind of made fun of. I saw a similar look of satisfaction that I saw years ago. I was then discounted for my weight loss and effort. No congrats but rather how I am "doing it wrong."
I am just angry. I am so sick of being angry. But I do have to say that working out made me feel better. I just need to stick with that and focus.
Go back and reread the book I gave you. I have seen for myself how some of the major people in your life dismiss your accomplishments and I am sad for them because you are a wonderful person and you have a lot to be proud of! Toxic people are just that way and you are not going to change them; so move on with your loving family and enjoy life as it was meant to be. I think that maybe your anger is with yourself for not being able to let go. God loves you, your husband and kids love you, and we love you!
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