Weight down to 212.8, so almost 5 pounds in a week. That did put a smile on my face. I just have to keep it up.
I cracked last week. You know when a glass or a mirror just gets hit with something and long crack happens. It changes the ability of the item. It distorts the way it looks and the way it can be used. I have been all spun up.
I think I cracked so more last night. The reality that I am facing this crazy sort of hell alone hit me. I know others are affected, well wait... they are very little.
In some ways I am proud of myself because I am holding it together pretty well. Well enough that my job or family haven't been too impacted. I had an anxiety attack last night and it went unnoticed. However, it just left me numb.
I guess it is a good thing I have an appointment on Tuesday to where my head is at and how to clear/cope with it.
Sweetie you have no idea how much it affects your family .... they know and you ARE NOT ALONE! Dick and I are very proud of you, and I know that your husband is. I'm more proud of you for working through this with some help - it WILL make a major impact in your life if you let it. Love you much .... Mom
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